Today I got a smile from a young girl

She was young and bubbling. Her lips were full and pouting, red and wanting to be bit. She had full hips and a swagger that screamed attention. I smiled at her. An embarrassed smile but full and noticed. I stood there frozen and ashamed of my attention to her, I looked away still smiling. She noticed and said "Hi!" I giggled and said "Hi" back, looking away knowing that the age difference was too great. I watched as she took her sand cruiser bicycle and rode off away like she did before. It was a wonderful moment. One I'll re-live again and again. It was a wonderful moment. I loved it. I made her smile at me and she made me smile at her. It made me feel so wonderful, so magical, so powerful. I didn't know I still had it in me to evoke that kind of emotion from someone. I have been so down on myself lately that I thought I was dead inside. But that moment really stole me away. You have no idea. It was so special. I know I'll never see her again, nor she me but we shared that moment and it will live forever.

Mother's Day

Last Friday I spent with mom. She's getting a little better. She's gained a couple of pounds I think. I found out my sister had come to visit her during the week. She e-mailed that she's going to try to come and stay with her during the summer.

Today Kathleen took the boys to Ramona to her sister Rosy's house for a barbecue. I spent the day with Jessica Barrymore. We talked and watched a couple of movies. She called her mom to wish her a happy mother's day then she made me a mushroom bacon cheeseburger for lunch.

she's right, of course.

From: A reader

Date: May 8, 2008 11:59:14 PM EDT
To: Julia Allison
Subject: do you ever stop loving someone?

I’ve thought about this all week, and I don’t think that you ever stop loving the person.

You can catalogue their flaws, but it won’t matter.

If you came home from work one night & their car was flipped over in front of your building, you’d still run to the open window & try to pull them out, weeping the whole time.

Breakups are messed up.

Why don’t we realize how rare & precious this whole “love” thing is at the moment it’s happening?

Why does it take bullshit “hindsight” for us to figure it out?

Sigh.
Deep thoughts.

** eye roll **

Well there you go

That's just the way life is, really. It just goes to show ya. Where ever you go there you are.

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